- the thunderous peak of seeing an unseen picture of tennis players I dotted over

- the lure of stalkers who emailed me 15 years ago

- the lingering regret of shutting out the teenhood best friend who developed one-sided feelings 

- all the books I wanted to read

- the people I outgrew. The people who outgrew me.

- the suave beast who ended up giving his wife a black eye years later

- to lie in my parents porch, lemonade and book in hand to a spring breeze, a time before cellphones and truly a time to immerse myself in moments, dip myself in pretend scenarios, the exact years when my Tolkien fanaticism developed, a time I dallied from frolicking thought to thought.

- the beastly girl with fat eyes and fat lips who flirted with my husband, before he was mine

- the Paris Hilton era

- dreaming of travelling, hence settling on Anthony Bourdain

These are just some of my midnight thoughts. What are yours